Assalamu Alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh. In the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful and may peace and blessings be upon the Prophet Muhammad SAW, his companions, his entire household and the Prophets who came before him.
Let’s say my journey was a weird one. The reason why I say that is because it wasn’t until very later on in my life that I realised the true worth of hijab.
Before I go into the details of my first encounter of actually wearing it, I’d like to point out to you the verses in the Qur’an regarding the Hijab in which Allah says:
“And tell the believing women to reduce [some] of their vision and guard their private parts and not expose their adornment except that which [necessarily] appears thereof and to wrap [a portion of] their headcovers over their chests and not expose their adornment..” (24:13)
“O Prophet, tell your wives and your daughters and the women of the believers to bring down over themselves [part] of their outer garments. That is more suitable that they will be known and not be abused. And ever is Allah Forgiving and Merciful.” (33:59)
Now, why did I pay mention to these verses?
Well, because like I said before, I never really and truly paid attention to these ayah after a long time and I never truly understood them like I do know but alhamdulillah, Allah swt has His ways of teaching us things and everybody is on a different journey.
Now, fast-forward to the emotional, dramatic, life-changing bits if you want to put it like that!
Thoughts on Hijab
I really think the thinking process of the Hijab is so important. It was actually my mother (may Allah bless her and give her Jannah) who provoked the thought. She wears it so the inspiration came from there mostly. Most importantly, there comes a time in a muslimah’s life where she must seek the wisdom behind His commandments once they become a duty upon her. Also, this is where intentions sparks from. Make your intentons sincere, kind of like foundations of a building. If the foundations of a building are weak what use is the buliding going to be right? Intention is key.
The big day
Now, besides a girl’s wedding day, I’d say THIS should be a very important time in her life. The day you take the responsibility of fulfilling something beloved to Him, I think of it this way, the things He makes obligatory upon us is only for our own good and that’s all because He loves us. Subhan’Allah. So, the big day was the first day of secondary school, I was thinking about it so much over the summer holidays, it felt exciting because me and my friend decided we should support each other and both wear it as soon as school starts. Now, 12 year old me is feeling really nervous, I had major butterflies that day! Subhan’Allah. It felt weird but amazing. I felt different but a good different. I walked through the gates that day, there were alot of new faces which was an advantage for not feeling too uncomfortable I guess. My friends were supportive but to be really honest, on the first day of secondary school nobody really cares how you look because everyone is too busy feeling nervous and are generally just worried about themselves!
Now my journey didn’t stop here. I told you it wasn’t a normal transition for me. Quite a rollercoaster but nothing is easy.
In terms of challenges, I faced many. I will mention one which many sisters have been through and are still going through. That would be social pressure. I wasn’t a little girl anymore, I knew that but I was very much driven by other people’s opinions. Bear in mind, that was the old me. I lived for people if you want to put it like that I guess. So, if I wasn’t doing what everybody else was doing, it was a major problem for me. When I was the age of 15, this attitude started to kick in. Now, fashion trends are a very very huge obstacle for a Muslim girl living in the West. If you are weak in eeman like I was, Shaytan will lead you astray, thats his aim and he’ll make you think everything you’re doing is okay.
It’s very important that we understand hijab because not knowing its true essence can be detrimental. My appearance was not up to a modest standard. Hijab means ‘veil’ right? Of course, but little did I know and neither was I taught it was wrong to be wearing inappropritate clothing with my headscarf. I just justified it to myself in my head. I wouldn’t go any further because you all probably get the picture. I was one of those modern day hijabis you see in the street and stop yourself from judging her, because ‘she might have a cleaner heart than you.’ Yeah. Them ones.
Eventually, I got there, I realised it was wrong and so contradictive to the true meaning of Hijab itself but that I realised for myself in time and I really wished I knew from the beginning. I wished somebody told me off for it or at least advised me.
Muslim women dont’ have a ‘The End’ to their Hijab journey’s until they leave this Dunya I guess!
I’d just like to say, I salute the akhawaat all around the world who take up such a responsibility of preserving their modesty, who manage to show societies that Hijab is a form of liberty rather than oppression. As well as that I’d like to say I really admire the niqabi sisters especially, who I aspire to be like someday insha’Allah ta’ala, their struggle seems far greater.
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